Do we become less flexible as we grow older because we know how our mood changes in reaction to things?

Obsessed with 🌱

I’m at that stage where I zoom in a hot person’s photos to see what kind of citrus fruit tree is in the background.

I have got madly obsessed with gardening while I was missing. May update more on it in future.

I’m really tired of all the negativity in this house. Dad’s incessant contradictions of whatever I may say. His underestimating me thoroughly. Even in comparison to my simple cousin whom I trained. I’m tired of the clutter in this house. I’m tired of all the negativity and having to live in it. (The kid is tired too and getting badly affected.) Every discussion changes to shouting matches. He simply can not listen to me or respect that I may have gained some experience in my four decades. I feel like a teenager. Dad was not around when I was an actual teen, he seems to be making up for it.

How to live without goals? I can’t operate if I don’t have a final picture in my mind.

Marie Condo would accept defeat in my house. She would run for the woods because of all the arguments.

Mindfulness

I did it for one evening walk and was pretty pleased with the results. How do I do it the whole day?

I’m confused. Does it mean that I have to stop multi-tasking?

Friends with Exes

I think we could never be friends because other than love we had nothing in common.

The Man in the Mirror

I finally shaved off the lockdown beard and the man in the mirror is, oh my God, someone in the 50s.

Ha ha ha. I know it’s because of all the lockdown weight but you know how people from 30-50 look the same age and 50-65. I’m firmly in the latter bracket.

This means I would really not like to meet a person who looks like that and is whiny. He is supposed to be the man with all the answers. Also a man who looks like that should be the father of a kid in his 20s not someone with a 3 year old. Ha ha ha ! I have to stop hanging out with people in their 20s. I would’ve been embarrassed to call such an old man my “friend”. And no it’s not like I’m depressed and so speaking so, I really should not.

I also should stop being grumpy because I look like a middle aged man who is always in a bad mood.

I think this is why people sport those beards. Gives them some personality other than of a grumpy middle aged man.

Do it again?

After some time the years of regret and years of mirth start merging.