I can not switch myself on or off at moment’s notice. I invested into the veranda project twice earlier when I was snubbed with all these talks about marriage and my coming out. I had packed my bags (they are still packed) top leave, then if I stayed back on your pleading it does not automatically mean that all the wounds you gave my soul are healed. They take time to heal. I won’t invest any more emotions on anything without thinking a hundred times.