Finally I’ve decided. If I can’t have those wishes. I can have some of those things. Like you can’t stop me from running a 21K even if I take 3 hrs. That’s me competing with me. Or do 200 pushes, that’s between me and my body. Or be obsessed with having a six pack. Again all me. Or draw and paint whatever I want. And yes it can be all portraits for all I care. And yes I might study hard, again me. And do things with children. Maybe I turn out Olympians. It’s all up to me.