*This post talks explicitly about gay sex.*
I sent Mom and Dad (with members of the extended family) out for a movie. The house was free to myself. After dropping them at the theatre I picked the boy from the lane outside his home. I was nervous. This was the first time I was bringing anyone home. After about 20 minutes of awkwardness, I dimmed the lights. He made the first move. We kissed and then the things went from 0 to 20…for some time. He wanted rough, I like it soft. I had to tell him to be gentle quite a few times. I didn’t bite him hard enough. I tried to make it pleasurable for him but I think I was too vanilla for his taste. We knew that there won’t be any fucking as we’re both tops. So we ended up cuddling. Neither of us came.
I dropped him home on my way to pick up the family from the theatre. He messaged that he enjoyed it (was he being polite? ). We chatted a bit later in the night- emoji kisses and all.
Will I ever have chemistry with anyone? Is coming mandatory? I seem unable to. I had stopped coming even with Him. Although all we do is mutual masturbation. I think I should stop watching porn. I need lessons from someone more experienced.