No oily food.
No butter naans.


I have decided to quit trying to sleep. I woke up due to the heat but I couldn’t sleep cause I couldn’t stop thinking.
I’ve been untroubled past 3 days because I had something to do. But now that I have time till Monday….
I feel paranoid about my own HIV status. Even though I haven’t done more than some sloppy kissing and a bit of oral in the past few months. But the way things have been going…
I’m planning to go for another test tomorrow. After all, I can afford to quit home and be on my own only till have my job and that will last only till I am negative.

2 Heads

It’s a gift from God that men have two heads. 😉
Another thing to be thankful for is that there is someone out there who will find you cute and do-able. Even if you are not attractive in the traditional sense .
I’m sitting across this guy with a tiny little tummy.  He’s got that just-out-of-bed face – literally – unwashed. unshaven. His beard,  if he grows it, will be like Jon Snow’s. 
And I want to feel his ass through those synthetic footballer shorts.

Going Away

Left home. Packed for six months (ship). Might (will) return in one. Or maybe in 3 days.

Dad came with teary eyes and choking throat in the afternoon. He wants to hand over the business to me within an hour of my completing the course.
I said I might want to live separately.
He said we can look at a house in our block.
I said I might want to live far from them.
He said ok.
And what about Him, I asked.
Forget him he said.
I didn’t vow to live alone, I said.
You have your friend (childhood buddy, married), he said.
I won’t be a third wheel in his marriage, I said, You understand nothing !
I lost my patience. Again.

Only lowly, gypsies( can’t think of an  abhorrent word in English) like such low grade authors, she said.
The guy had written a treatise on one of the scriptures infusing new ideas and questions and this new interpretations. Nothing radical though, I swear. I had purchased with the hope of turning her a fan, so that when I purchased the book that I really wanted her to read, where he quotes from scriptures explaining that homosexuality was really accepted in the past, she would readily accept. I don’t think I’ll purchase that one now.

PS: Dad agreed to read This Is a Book for Parents of Gay Kids: A Question & Answer Guide to Everyday Life
I downloaded it on his iPad Kindle App.