I feel so fucked up sometimes. Like what a mess I have made of my life.


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  1. I feel that way a lot of the time, but I’ve learned just not to compare myself to others. I’ve always tried to do the best I can. I may not have been successful, but things could always be worse. Harlon

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    1. See my latest post. I avoided asking how He is, what are His numbers. I think I avoided that trap today. I *know* , from his words alone that, He’s depressed and lonely but I’m being selfish. I wish I had done this in 2012 when we finally broke up for the first time. He wasn’t poz then. World didn’t seem all dark to him then. But I called and he turned out bipolar and it took me 5 more years to get out of that relationship. And what did I get out of it? Zilch. So I feel I’ve made fucked up choices always. Yeah yeah I know I see the clouds when others see the silver linings…but…


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