In the morning my throat had swollen so much that I thought I’d choke. Then I thought of a distant future where this is a real possibility. No one would even come to know.
I have not discussed or even mentioned my imminent departure with Mom. I want to write, “I wish you knew how lonely and sad I was. Lonely not for some female partner but for my parents who seem to be on a different planet where I’m married with kids. Wish there was empathy in you.” But I know it’s not even worth writing to her. Because for her cowards leave behind letters. The brave face every situation.