Even if it doesn’t work out in the long run, I will always be thankful to him for giving back my erections.

If something is too good to be true, it probably is.

Clarity

(He spent the night at the school digs. I sent him away before any of the staff woke up. I’m the morning I sent him the following text.)

Good morning :). Pls let me know your Bxjnxr plans.
And I need to speak to you on phone in the afternoon to get us on the same page. Whatsapp chats are not good for clarity.

Dunno what I’m getting myself into. I need to reclaim the position of power in this ‘relationship’.

‘I love you’ means 100% commitment. Don’t say  if you don’t mean. You can’t play games after extracting that.

Of course I’m thinking like a typical Virgo. Searching for clouds around this silver lining.

Meanwhile I’m enjoying the sunshine. Even if he is not serious about this, I have everything to gain 😅.

(did I tell that he said I love you already 😁-27 yo behaving like a twink).

His being so beautiful is clouding my judgement.

In other news I’ve eased up on porn and masturbation (a week now) – I’m having more erections than I’ve had in ages. 😎

Gosh ! It takes mom exactly 15 mins to fuck up my mood for the day. Increased my blood pressure which seems to not be coming down. So much negativity.

Coffee Date in the Mountains

(The frikkin WP app is not working that’s why I couldn’t upload regularly)

Our rendezvous was the only decent mall in town.  I was shopping for the trek I was to take. When he reached he was like wow! He was wearing shorts and a faded tee and because he’s so tall he was all legs 😍 Still not my type but you couldn’t not look at him. And he wears earrings in both the ears. I’m sure everyone was looking at him. The words that clicked in my mind were – Trophy Boy, Arm Candy, S.E.X.Y