When I see tv programs about homes, especially kitchen, I want to call him. Some of the best food I’ve been fed has been cooked by him. Had I ever built a house it would have been for him. Should I call him? He’s trouble.


Saw Kellan Lutz’s Hercules. Obviously made by a Christian with no idea about polytheistic pagans. Hercules shown as some kind of Jesus. He’s actually called ‘The Saviour ‘ throughout the movie.

Fuck I have to go back tonight.

His sister and brother’s kids have typhoid.

So it’s me and his wife (my cousin).

There are diapers to be changed. Blood is coming in the urine bag.

God be kind.

The toll that caregiving takes … fuck I’m breaking down. The poor guy is in so much of pain. I’m escaping for a few days. She is alone there. I’m a coward.

Ok so I’m going to the capital with my cousin on sunday night. Her husband’s cancer has now spread to his pancreas and now pressing all kinds of buttons – his sugar level is not maintaining. I guess this will be a last ditch effort. He was stage 3 when he was detected last March. It had started from the Urinary Bladder and spread to liver n lungs. Several rounds of chemo haven’t helped. Let’s see what happens now.

I was supposed to co-host a classical music programme with my aunt (it’s a monthly thing). It is also on sunday night. I’m trying to manage doing that and then catch the train…fingers crossed.

Omg! I didn’t know that my clip studio paint works so smooth. And here I was doubting my skills and abilities for so long. Ha ha ha ! The machine’s so good that anyone would feel like drawing and drawing something good 🙂